The Killer Bee

Psalm 34:17-20 ESV

When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all. He keeps all his bones; not one of them is broken.

To wake up in the morning, and regret waking up. To be disappointed by the fact that the death angel had not come to visit you in the midnight hour, is a dark place to be. To wish, that you were dead, because life seems so hard and your trials feel as if they are just too much to bare. You operate on robot function. You're constantly on the edge, always picking fights, being pessimistic hoping that someone would notice that you're in pain; you're hurting. Turning to scissors to physically articulate your spiritual pain and emptiness. Over dosing on prescription drugs, over extending yourself, maximizing the turn up because you're desperate for an escape. You've cried but that didn't make it better. You don't know where to start, so you don't talk about it. You're afraid that if someone knows about what you've really been up to that they would hurt you by judging you instead of helping you by praying with you, and offering a shoulder, and the information of someone who might be able to help. So now here you are stressed and depressed, feeling broke, busted, and disgusted because the world has found a way to sit on top of you. In a world of so much, all you want is peace of mind and clarity in regards to your situation. You feel as if life has backed you into a corner, and given you one option; abandon life at all cost.

Let's call a spade a spade and admit one thing. The temporary fix to what seems like a permanent problem, was a no go; it didn't work. Getting high as a kite only made falling back to the ground and the reality of real life hurt more. Reverting back to your old ways before you got saved, did not eliminate your problem. Actually, it magnified it to the point where you can't help but face the facts. You've met a rock in a hard place before, but for some reason this particular situation seems as if it will overcome you. It seems as if you're standing in a problem quick sand that will soon consume you. You cry yourself to sleep every night in desperation for a solution because you feel as if life is not fair. You've forgotten about the fact that there are people who sacrifice everyday for you to live the life you live and have the things you have. You completely ignore the fact that whether or not mama ate every night she made sure she did the best she could to put food on the table for you, that you might be able to sit in a classroom and learn without the soundtrack of a hungry stomach in the background. You've completely forgotten about the fact that there are people not just around the world, but here in this country who wish that had an opportunity to live in a home with running water, and electricity. Before you say, "I'd switch anyway," think about the real struggle. Think about young people who live everyday on the street doing the best they can to make it on their own because they were abandoned at a young age. Think of that young man who has no idea that he is a mathematical genius because brilliance is not encouraged in his home. Think of that family of five off five living out of their car, because the state of the economy hit them so hard that they've not yet been able to bounce back. God has been so good to you, God has been so faithful to you. Are you sure that you want to repay him, by taking a life, that you yourself, you alone can not afford?

You're life seems so hard right now because your purpose is great. God has a great calling on your life. Your testimony is so great that when you speak people will listen. But, you've got to make up in your mind that you have something worth living for. Don't allow the people around you talk down to you to the point where you begin to carry yourself differently because you think less of yourself. Don't allow one bad situation to deter you from every goal, vision, and dream that you've ever had. God loves you and wants nothing more than for you to succeed in life, by giving him Glory in Honor in everything that you do. Humble yourself and realize that everything is not about you. In fact, you're not saved by grace for your own benefit. God works on the inside of you, that you might tell others of his mighty acts and wondrous work in you. There are young people everywhere looking up to you, praying that you succeed so that they can add your name to their mental list of role models. You have so much to live for, so many reason to wake up and be grateful, so many reasons to lift your hands and tell God thank you, life is not alway as bad as it seems.

Jeremiah 29:11 ESV

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.

Pick yourself up, dust your shoulders off, turn away from your sins and turn to God. One thing that you must realize is the fact that you can face God and the world simultaneously. When you do what you want to do, things that you know work against God's plan for you life, but you do it anyway, you've then turned your back on God. If you have turned your back to God, it's time to turn things back around by resubmitting yourself to him. This doesn't mean that life will get any easier, but it does mean that God will order your footsteps and guide you every step of the way. If you need comforting he's a comforter, if you need a protector he has the supernatural resources you need to be protected. God specializes in things that seem impossible. The space that you thought was reserved for that boy friend or girlfriend, that Hennessy, prescription drug, premarital sex, cigarette, or self-inflicted pain was really the spot in your heart predestined for God from day one; and without him you will continue to feel incomplete. Life without God is not life at all, because he took time to create each and everyone of us for his Glory, and his honor, and so if we live in a way that contrast our conception not only are we living a lie, but we're living outside of our purpose. With God comes love, completeness, joy, peace of mind, knowledge, and so many other things that are vital to navigating the logistics of life. Jesus Christ the son of God, gave his life on Calvary's cross that you might have life. Scripture tells us that Jesus was without sin, and that no one took his life from him, but that he laid his life down for his friend (John 10:18). Jesus calls you friend, and considers you family so much so that he provides your every need, and has kept you by his grace and mercy this far which is all the more reason to turn your life around. You've come too far to quit. You've made too much progress to all of a sudden give up because of a little difficulty. Stop isolating yourself from the world. When you have negative thoughts, begin to speak life, and rebuke those thoughts and ideas from your mind. Understand that God's got huge plans for your life, your success, your betterment, and your development. However, you must stay in the ring, you must continue to fight. Your life is worth living!

Let us bow:

Father,

We're in a bad place. A place in which if you don't save us we won't be saved because we've tried everything else and those things failed us. We tried expressing ourself to our closet friend or someone we thought could help and they failed us. Lord, the pressures of life seem as if they are too much, and I don't know how much more I can with stand because I feel so alone, I've cried so much that there are no more tears, and I've hurt so much that I've started to hurt other people. But I recognize that those feelings and negative actions are not of you, and so I denounce myself and my personal will and way to take on your will and your way, accepting your plan for my life. Have your way in my life, protect me from myself as I have not been able to make wise decisions alone. Lord regulate my mind that I might rise every morning with gratitude and appreciation for the work that you're doing in my life. Take complete control, guide me in the way that you would have me to go. Take control of my thoughts and my words, so that when I open my mouth, others see a wonderful change on the inside of me because you have reentered my life. Thank you God for saving me from myself, and keeping me out of harms way thus far. I bless you God for you are great and greatly to be praised. It is in the name of Jesus we pray this prayer, Amen!